A certain Ice Cube song ran through my head aaalll day yesterday. Given that I’m still heavy with regret that I consciously chose not to write about my personal day-to-day life whatsoever on my blog last year,  I’m making amends immediately now. Yesterday ROCKED, and this year I am going to celebrate AND record days like this.  Not to brag, not to bore. Just for me, because I so look forward to leafing back through my blog annals in the future and reading “that was the day I said YES to THAT!!” I can’t wait. In fact, I have a strong feeling about this upcoming year that it’s going to be full of sparkly moments of progress and possibility, and I’m going to capture it this time!

So here’s what made it an all-around pretty good day: Liam came into my room and crawled into bed early but instead of wanting to play, he actually wanted to go back to sleep and we cuddled, arms wrapped tight around his tininess and slept a few wonderful hours that way. I started work on my first writing assignment for Somerset Life. I put the smack down on one of my bucket list items: this will be the year I step outside of my comfort zone and wear noticeable red lipstick, like I have envied for ages on other women: Red lipstick purchased at lunch!

Michael and I got to the root of our three week fighting stint. Major life transitions (like Blending Families..) = Major Stress. But at least we got to the bottom of it and then spent some time laying in the sun in a park, playing with our new dog. It was a perfect 75 degrees outside, in January.

I went dancing and, as usual, had an absolute blast country dancing with complete gentlemen in cowboy hats who never tried to hit on me. And I wore red lipstick. And made fish faces…

All of that makes a pretty goooood day in my book, and I’d be mad grateful for a day like that once a week in my life, but I think the Universe wanted to teach me a little lesson and dropped in and made my day absolutely Amazing.

Here’s what happened:

Christine Mason Miller asked me to come work at the ridiculously beautiful looking and powerful sounding Matrilumina Retreat … which is in five weeks!!

Christine and I have been e-pen-pals for some time now. Interestingly, we rarely chat about art, and I don’t think we’ve ever chatted about business! But we’ve connected in many other ways and whatever admiration I already held for her as a writer and artist  just grows as I get to know her as a person, woman, friend.

That she would ask me to come play a part in this experience is already sort of awe-inspiring for me. My actual email response reads as follows:

Self 1: “Play it cool Jess! Just say yes Thank You and try to sound professional about it…”
Self 2: “Videotape yourself squealing and turning bright red with excitement and then right back in all caps…” 

But what is just “tip your chin up and gaze sheepishly at the Universe” crazy about this story is this: Not a week before, I’d removed and trashed the small portion of my 2013 Vision Board (made October 2012) that said MATRILUMINA RETREAT. Along with that piece, I had also torn off and trashed the piece that read “Have my first Art Gallery show of my paintings.” The former was stripped for financial reasons. In my head I truly believed there was no possible way I could afford to go. And the latter was stripped because, plainly speaking, I am just annoyed at myself for continuing to dream of it and keep it on my Bucket List but not actually taking the tangible steps to achieve that dream. It just seemed easier to say, “Meh, I’ll just give away what I’ve got and forget the idea.”

 Universe, you had a good chuckle at me that afternoon, didn’t you?

Within the next seven days of that afternoon I was invited to have a small selection of my paintings up at a show this summer in Tulsa. And directly thereafter, I was invited to come work at Matrilumina and be a part of the experience.

This is where I humbly bow before the Universe.

I’m still in a wonder-daze just thinking about it, but I’m coherent enough to pinpoint the following, which I really, really want you to know today, given the powerful reminder I was just served:

1. Never underestimate the power of your Vision Board

2. “Impossible” is really an insult. The source of abundance is inexhaustible. Let the ways in which it will come surprise, delight, and rock your socks off. 

3. Trust and Believe and give logic a rest. 

P.S. This is my 1,000th post on this blog!!! 

 

 

7 Responses to “In which I humbly bow before the Universe (and wear red lipstick)…”

  1. Swirly says:

    The Universe has give us BOTH such wonderful gifts this week, as I am THRILLED you will be with us in March!!

  2. Congratulations! That is great news and “Dahlink, you look marvelous in that red lipstick!” :)

  3. Nancy Peevey says:

    Congratulations, Jess, on this being your 1,000 posting on your blog, for getting to participate in such a special retreat, for getting to write an article for Somerset, and for getting to hang your paintings in a gallery. Having gotten to know you through our HSHB class, sharing inspiration decks, and reading your blog, I believe your new opportunities are so well deserved. Thank you for continuing to be inspiring, real, and for letting your heart hang out for so many to see. You are such a precious, beautiful soul. xoxo

  4. Linda T says:

    Congratulations!! Thanks for being an inspiration to all of us….boldly baring your feelings and sharing your excitement. Thank you, thank you! Happy to be traveling this life with you. Peace and love, my friend!

  5. What a great day! Congrats on the many layers of loveliness and thanks for sharing your personal stuff. It is a great way to get to know you better.

  6. Trish says:

    That is SO amazing! Just the other day I took a Wish List down from my Vision Board because I thought it was hoping for too much, but you’ve inspired me to put it back up there (I’d tucked it away into a journal, but I think it needs to be front and centre). I’ll let you know how that goes.

    Congratulations Jess! Thoroughly deserved Universe-fairy-dust ;-)

  7. Laura says:

    You look great with a cheesy smile on your face!
    May things continue to go your way!

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